Nov. 6, 2012
6:00 a.m. My first thought this morning is the same as my last before dropping off to sleep last night: Election Day. This is it. It's been such a long campaign season. I'm glad it's finally almost over. I'm sick of it all. Are we actually about to elect as president one of those plutocrats who crashed the economy four years ago? Only in America . . . .
6:15-7:15: A mighty struggle this morning to keep thoughts of the election out of my mind during meditation and spiritual reading. I keep directing my mind back to the words of my "passage meditation": "All that we are is the result of what we have thought; we are formed and molded by our thoughts . . ."
7:30: On my way to the gym, I go over the list of people I pray for each day. I stumble over the last inclusion -- the prayer for President Obama. I've been praying it over the last four years : "May the president be remembered as the best the United States has ever had. May he be filled with loving kindness. May he be safe from dangers, internal and external. May he be well in body, in heart, and in mind. And may he find peace and be truly happy."
8:00-8:30: I'm on the elliptical machine at the gym now. I think about that Obama prayer. A lot of good it's done! This guy has been such a disaster: droning, torture, a Bush-like "surge" in Afghanistan, renewal of the Patriot Act, restrictions on civil liberties, extension of tax cuts for the wealthy, surrender on the public option in healthcare, refusal to explain and defend himself in the face of relentless Republican attacks and GOP rejection of bipartisanship . . . . If he's reelected, he'll probably immediately abandon his base again. I feel so angry about that. He just failed to grasp which side his bread is buttered on. Maybe he's not as smart as we thought.
8:50-9:00: I'm walking home now. Obama actually called us "professional leftists" and "whiners." I can't get that out of my mind. And now he's ever so cooperatively begging for our vote! What gall! How arrogant! I feel so insulted, I could almost vote for Romney!
9:15: Now I'm preparing breakfast. Would things really change that much if Obama lost? Can Mitt Romney be much worse? Well, there are those Supreme Court nominations in the offing. All we need are more Clarence Thomases. . . . I'm confused.
9:30: While eating breakfast, I tune in to Amy Goodman's "Democracy Now." Election Day focus is on the Republican campaign to suppress the vote. Their crusade strikes me as outrageous, unpatriotic, and treasonous. Why didn't the Democrats do something about reforming the electoral process when they had the chance? The whole thing is so corrupt, what with "Citizens United," voting machine conflicts of interest, redistricting, and voter suppression aimed at minorities and Democrats. Why are we still discussing these things on Election Day? The electoral system should have been reformed immediately after the 2000 "hanging chad" disaster. Obama really screwed up by not taking advantage of the mandate for change and the super majority he enjoyed in Congress in 2008. I'm so pissed.
10:00: I'm off to vote in the Madison Southern High School gymnasium. It's busy there. This is a Red State. I catch myself thinking harsh thoughts about Kentuckians. Then I see some friends. We exchange pleasantries. I approach the desk to sign in to vote. They ask for my ID. I search my wallet for one without a photo -- I just don't want to give in to this voter ID nonsense. I'm white, so the ID works. I guess they don't require a photo of whites.
10:15: I sign in to vote. The ballot is a single page and surprisingly uncomplicated -- nothing like the 12 page ballot they're using to suppress the vote in Florida. I'm directed to a desk (with privacy shields) alongside two other voters. This is different from what we used to do in Madison County. In 2000 and before we went into a curtained booth and voted via Diebold machine. I never did trust those things; still don't.
10:25: I fill out votes for City Council members -- searching for names I recognize, most of them former colleagues at Berea College where I used to teach. They're all "liberal" enough, I guess.
10:27: I VOTE FOR GREEN PARTY CANDIDATE, JILL STEIN. I'm thinking, the Democrats and Obama simply have to get the message that they've lost people like me. Anyway, since Kentucky's such a red state, my vote for president is otherwise meaningless. Now if I were in Ohio or Florida, it would be a different story. I would vote for Obama there. (In fact, a couple of weeks ago, I spent a Saturday afternoon phoning Ohioans to get out the vote for Obama. That's how conflicted I am.)
11:30: I Skype a friend of mine in Amsterdam. He's a self-exiled former priest who holds dual citizenship in Great Britain and in the U.S. He's chosen to boycott this election. Over the last few weeks he's been chiding me for supporting Obama. "How can you do that? he's been asking. Didn't you watch the third debate? On foreign policy, Obama and Romney are on the same page. It's absolutely selfish to vote for Obama because he'll somehow protect your Social Security. The man's a war criminal -- droning, torturing, eliminating civil liberties, suspending habeas corpus. . . . The Democrats are as corrupt as the Republicans. The whole system has to come down, and that means going through a period of purgation that will be hard as hell, but it has to happen." My friend is pleased when he hears I've voted for Stein.
12:00: I have to break away from the Skype conversation to answer a knock on the door. It happens to be another ex-priest. (Our parish is loaded with them -- four of us.) We sit on our front porch and talk politics. My friend agrees that the system must come down. What form do you think it will the disintegration take, I ask? "Last week answered that question," he says. He was referring to Hurricane Sandy. "That even woke up the business suits," he says . "Did you see that Bloomberg's magazine ran a headline last week, "It's Global Warming, Stupid'? Once the suits wake up like that, you'll see changes." He continues , "The dollar's going to be devalued; the European Union's going to hell, and simple demographics are running against the fascists. I mean, the whole thing's disintegrating before our very eyes. And you're asking "what form will it take?' Open your eyes, man. And hang on to your seatbelt!" Then he added with a nod towards our status as septuagenarians, "I don't think you and I will live to see this particular "Berlin Wall' fall. Thank God."
1:00-5:00: All afternoon I compulsively check my Kindle Fire for . . . I'm not sure for what. Am I hoping for some news about "who's winning?" I know the polls won't close for hours. Still, there might be something about exit polls. All I find though are more last-minute appeals for money from Move-On and others. They're still asking for telephone calls to undecideds on behalf of Elizabeth Warren. Those appeals have been making me feel guilty for months. Instead of phoning, I watch the end of "Platoon." It reminds me of Obama's broken promises about Iraq, Afghanistan, and Guantanamo, and the likelihood that no matter who wins, we'll soon be attacking Iran at Israel's behest.
5:30: I go for supper to the home of a friend of mine (also a former priest!). We warm up with Manhattans. Then a spaghetti dinner with my friend's famous meatballs. Always a treat. My friend, yet another one of us ex-priests, is a self-identified curmudgeon. He's claims he has given up completely on politics. He's convinced that nothing in the world ever really changes. Romney and Obama are essentially the same. Life goes on no matter what. The best we can do is tend our own gardens. I think about "Platoon" and find myself thinking he may be right.
7:30: The first returns are coming in now. We keep switching back and forth between FOX, MSNBC, and CNN. The reporters are obviously enamored of their "magic boards" and high tech gadgets. By 9:30 Romney has a lead in electoral votes. But a subtext of the evening (except on FOX) is that Obama will close the deal in Ohio and even, it seems, in Florida. We'll see.
10:00: I return home and tune into Amy Goodman's Election Night Coverage. She's interviewing Green Party candidate, Jill Stein along with Ohio Congressman, Dennis Kucinich. Instead of simply reporting on the "horse race," they discuss the need for a third party in the U.S.
10:30: Still on Amy Goodman, Lee Rowland of the Brennan Center for Justice along with author Greg Palast report on voter suppression efforts in Florida and Ohio. Palast talks about his experience in Toledo where voters waited in a line of more than a thousand people. Once they got to their destination, they were not allowed to vote, but were given applications for absentee ballots. Incredible!
11:15: They've called the election for President Obama. Reportedly, his camp is already talking about a"Grand Bargain" with the Republicans. Bob Herbert of Demos says it's going to hurt the most vulnerable. Incredible!
12:00: I finally go to bed.