The more I ceased to "repress" the political events of the Bush years, is the more I found myself overtaken with moral/rational outrage. I don't know what other word to use. What other word "could" be used, when witnessing such utter, cancerous evil? If religion is right about the "anti-Christ", who better fits that identity than Dick Cheney?
I guess I'm fading in and out in this writing, moving from the "personal" to the political/factual, so I hope you will be patient with me.
I think the MAIN thing I'm struggling to put into words is that as I ceased to repress the agonizing reality of corporate fascism combined with religious fanaticism, I found a voice that was in a kind of permanent "attack mode". Now I don't apologize for that; indeed, I consider it one of the high moral/rational peaks of my life that I dared to take on these monsters with the full force of patriotic rage.
I often got into trouble with my total commitment to fight the good fight (and the word is spelled F I G H T!), and found myself increasingly alone with many of the pieces. My take on that is that, say, two years ago, it was almost as if you had to take your life into your hands in order to acquire ramming speed as you crashed into the neocon/fascist juggernaut. Thus, even though many comments were overjoyed that certain monstrous things were finally being put into words, I suspect (and it's only a suspicion) that sometimes the responses were thin because of raw and totally realistic fear.
After all, these ultimate criminals had almost certainly murdered Senator Paul Wellstone, sent anthrax in the mail to only high profile democrats, kept slaughtering our children in their money cow oils wars, and MOST OF ALL, almost certainly engineered 9/11 -- with a little help from their Saudi friends, since the Saudi Royal Family and Bush Royal Family are joined at the hip (as are Osama bin Laden and George W. Bush).
"Attack mode" is the operate phrase here, and it's exactly what I want to talk to you about now.
After a couple of pieces about my reservations about Obama's appointments (which continue to worry me), some of the feedback (and I thank you for it) jiggled me into the awareness that basically EVERYTHING I had been writing was "locked" into attack mode. Hence, my comments about Obama, etc., were still in that mode as well.
Now the personal part of this is that after much soul searching, I realized that this formerly kick ass and courageous (if I may say so) style of writing was inappropriate and even probably counter productive when writing about any "reservations" about Obama's appointments, because the "anger" was excessive to the content.
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