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Questions like, would I be happy with the way I've been spending my time lately if it turned out that tomorrow is the day the ICBMs start flying?
Would I be content with the things that my interest and attention have been focusing on, not just in my outward expression but silently in my mind?
What would I wish I had done? What would I wish I had done more of? What would I wish I had stopped doing?
Are there any chances I'd wish I'd have taken? Chances on love? Chances on life? Things I've held off on saying to people because it would require making myself more vulnerable than I am comfortable?
Am I happy with who I've been spending my time with? Have they been making the experience of this life more fulfilling than it would be without them in it, or less? Are they the people I'd want with me in the end?
Has my political energy and attention been spent wisely? Have I been focusing on the most important issues I could choose to focus on, knowing that nuclear war could be right around the corner? Or have I been getting lost in vapid partisan bickering, sectarian infighting, or dopey culture war distractions?
Have I done everything I possibly can to prevent a nuclear exchange between the US power alliance and Russia and/or China? Could I have helped draw more public awareness to this supremely important issue?
Have I been doing my best to really be present in each moment, or is my attention mostly consumed by my churning mental monologue? Is there anything I can do to spend more time in the present instead of in my head?
Am I really relishing my time here on this earth? Appreciating the thunderous beauty which surrounds me? Treasuring my encounters with my loved ones? Cherishing the sensory kiss of each moment? Adoring this world while it lasts? What intentions can I set for myself to help me really live this terrestrial life to its fullest?
Have I been living a life of truth and integrity? Have my behavior, speech and thinking aligned with what I know to be true? With what I believe to be valuable? With what I think of as an authentic human being?
Only you can answer these questions for yourself, but they do deserve answers. Whether this turns out to be the home stretch for humanity's run on this planet or not, these are good things to come to terms with and integrate into our way of living. Whether we all say goodbye together or whether we end up saying goodbye separately, eventually we've all got to say goodbye.
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