His
daughter Elif Guney Putun lives in
She is not
happy for being daughter of Yilmaz Guney: "Being daughter of Yilmaz Guney
ruined my life' she said.
"I would
crash with him if he was alive today. "Dad, we paid quittance of your fight' I
would say. I don't know what my brother thinks about father, but I think being
daughter of Yilmaz Guney ruined my life'
"Someone shows
father's photograph, he is armed and hard, this is your father, they say. I am
afraid while even looking at photograph. I was a child who can't receive
events. I was a surprised and sad child.
I want to be alone for relying to my sadness. I look for somewhere I can sleep.
I touch my vagina and smell my fingers. Just this makes me good. I am endless
dereliction and loneliness."
"I go to mother's
home at
"I went
down. They distinguish me from mother. I wouldn't have to leave mama, if I was
a boy. I wish I passed under the rainbow and I would be a boy. I thought I will
go to everywhere with dad like an immigrant."
"When my
father was evacuated from prison he cut my hairs. I was depressed. I wonder if
he cut my hairs for I am not boy or not. I wonder if he thought my hairs are so
villager or not. I couldn't ask and I have never learnt. I just know I was a disappointment
for my father. He was writing letter to Fatos (His wife) but he had never
written letter for me."
Elif Guney wrote a book, "Odadan Odaya' (The Between Rooms) she tells father in it.
"I am so nervous father because I didn't talk these to him. If he was alive I crashed with him, I wouldn't write this book. "Dad we paid quittance of your fight' I would say. "We paid quittance of your art. Our life was ruined. Your ideals were too weight for us' I would say."
"My father
used to work always, he worked till die. He went to
"He was so
busy, his films, wife, son, me, struggle and imagines. He was right too. And he
became cancer. He didn't have time for being my father, he died 47 aged."